This is for the first and the last time I will post about my friends. You know, when I saw [bunch] of best friends chatting hanging together I was like "Mannn, I am so jealous with you guys" But I know nobody knows. Nobody understands how I feel. I am not loner or forever alone. I do have friends.

When I was 17, I always regret for not think wisely. I had an offer to change class. The subjects arent interesting bcs I wasnt born to be a doctor. So I did set up my mind that I wont change class. FYI, my subjects are cool and I think that I can handle it. But the thing is, it isnt about the subjects. Its about friends. I made a right choice for my future but not friends. I am not saying that all of em are bad. They are good. Good friends. Some of em. I know, we cant be together. We cant be best friends.

I always cry and cry think about "MY LIFE IS SUCK" No actually I was wrong. Its not that bad. So I decided to be strong til the last day of SPM. Now its over. I feel so great now. Bcs I am away from her. She did chat me. Asked me. I answered her like "acuh tak acuh" and I know she noticed that. You know when something you HAD to "pendam" and then it becomes bigger and bigger.When someone made you upset talk to you then you have a feeling "Bad" one. And you was like "FUCK YOURSELF I DONT EVEN CARE" You was really mad. I wont blame myself for not sharing with people about how I feel. Because Im not kind of person that likes to "jaja" problems with people or even someone that I dont even know. I do heard a lot of complains about her. People was like "SHES JERK" "SHES ANNOYING" The most thing I hate is when SHES BEING SO EGOISTIC. She hates someone, she talks bad about someone and when she needs something she asks a help from em. Really really suck.

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Aku pun dah penat. Dan aku harap sangat kau jumpa life yang lebih baik dari sekarang. Dan kalau boleh aku tak wujud sangat lah dalam life kau. Sebab aku tak pasti lah aku jadi macam ni sebab apa. Dah banyak masalah aku lalui kot. Tapi this time, aku harap sangat2 aku takkan jumpa ciri2 kawan yang macam ni. Yang buat aku stress. Tapi kadang2 juga lah berlagak tak bersalah. Betah2 mcm aku salah. Faham2 lah memang lepas SPM aku dah janji dgn diri aku. Aku taknak tengok pun muka muka kau. Sebab benda tu paling menyakitkan. Kau nak masa, aku bagi. Aku nak masa, kau bagi. Bukan bermaksud aku benci kau selamanya. Tak pun, aku cuma perlu rawat hati aku sebab aku taknak hati aku ada masalah. Lagi satu, aku betul2 sedih dgn kau sebab kau buat twit pasal isu "terasa" aku tahu tu twit memang untuk aku. Tapi sebelum kau nak twit sesuatu benda tu. Kau selidik betul2 weh. Lagi berdosa seseorang tu sebab terasa. Kau fahamkan maksud tu betul2. Kau nak bahagia. Aku bagi. Tapi lepasni kalau boleh jangan masuk campur lagi dalam life aku. aku bukannya nak putuskan silaturahim. Tapi kau kena faham. Hati aku ni dah menderita 3 tahun dah. Kau taktahu sakitnya. Aku harap kau belajar dari kesilapan. Tolong hargai kawan. Aku pun bukan sempurna. Sebab tu aku perlukan masa untuk belajar erti kawan sebenar. Last post yang rasa macam aib dan ini aku lepaskan segalanya. Sebab aku dah belajar dari kesilapan. Kesilapan yang terbesar pernah aku buat.

Bye , Salam.